March 10, 2019 - Day 363

Well, I guess I drank more than I thought after I got back to the room last night. I fell asleep before any of the girls got back a little after 2:00 a.m. and they ate, made all kinds of noise and talking for about an hour they said and I never heard anything. I slept right through 10:00 when Dana and Karen knocked on our door to say goodbye.   The first thing I thought of when I woke up is this is about the same time and same day that I kissed your sweet lips one year ago today. You were sitting in your chair on the back porch and I was leaving to pickup our uniforms for the WGC Tournament and you did not want to go with me. Then I got the phone call that dad is in the hospital and mom is very sick so I needed to go stay with her while Paula and Jerry were with dad. So I told  you the change of plans and wasn't sure when I would be back home and kissed you goodbye and said I love you--for the last time ever. I sometimes wished I would have come back and kissed you and told you that I love you another time that morning.

When we got ready (which for me was hat on head, no makeup, and Tshirt & jeans) we ate at a place named Charlette Plummers. It is a seafood restaurant and I had crab cakes and they were good too! I don't remember it being there before, but Paula said it's been there for as long as she can remember. We started for our drive back to Dripping Springs when we finished eating there. It seems like the drive took forever. I don't know why it always seems longer to get home! Tired and hungover I guess!  I think we stopped once but we were in Dripping Springs by 6:30 p.m. I think. I was home in Bastrop at 7:30 p.m.  It was such a fun trip. That was my first girls trip since you've been gone, other than the one with the sisters to Canton. I needed to get away for a little break and since I didn't end up going to the family reunion last week, I didn't mind asking Glory to watch the pets again this weekend. Two weekends in a row I feel bad, 1)for leaving the pets with no attention for 3 days, and 2)for asking Glory too often.

John texted me this morning to say that the meet and greet with their dog and Cody went wonderful. He said they think Cody is a perfect fit for the whole family. I texted back, when do you want to take possession? He said we could do it Wednesday night as we had orginally planned the meetup with both dogs or they could pick him up anytime.

All the animals were so excited to see me and I waited to text John back to answer his question until I got home to see Cody and to see how I felt about it.  I asked John if he would pick him up during the day because I didn't want to be here and have to say goodbye! I make everything sad even though I know this is the right for their family and for Cody. I also thought it would be a good idea for Cody to get his new home on March 11, with the hope that I would have a good memory for that day instead of it always being the day you died. So that is what he said he would do.

Blake texted me today to say he loves me and thinking of me. Of course, I thought it was him saying, without saying, that this will be a hard week for us all, but it turns out that wasn't it at all! I texted him right back to say that I will call he and Kori on Wednesday, intentionally not want to call and upset them on Monday or Tuesday this week.

Good night! I love you! I miss you!